I have heard many times “I don’t know how you do it all!” Special needs child, infant who breastfeeds, work, maintain household, organize Sayla’s healthcare…list goes on. Truth is, I don’t do it all, I have help. I didn’t always have help, but I will spare you the ugly details of my life before help existed! We do not have family that live close…not even in the same state, so finding help has not been easy. I don’t like to ask for help. Could be a pride thing, or I don’t want to bother anyone, or it could be that I’m a control freak? But I just cannot do it all on my own.